Sunday, May 24, 2009
My Love Life...
I've been through quite a few relationships... But till now.. have yet found my Mr.Right.. emm..but still young la... just that sometimes im really lazy to get to know some1 again..emm..
anyway what can i say is i think i'm not good at handling relationship or how to maintain relationship ba..
Like my 2nd last relationship during my Sec5 life...it lasted almost 3 years...
and during that 3years, i think i really suffered alot.. kana betrayed is the most hurt i get..that one really unforgettable.. although ended up im the one who give up.. it still leave me a very deep hurt which took me almost a year to recover..but then now i and him are close friends.. haha.. weird ba..=p
and after that which is e recent relationship.. which lasted 1 year 7mths...
at first im really scare to accept this relationship becos of the bad experience in my previous one.. so i tell myself that this time round.. i must not be too weak... as in be more fierce.. cos previously im more to give in type.. and ended up many bad things happen.. so ya...
and becos of becoming abit more fierce.. it end up my temper wont be that good and also not that patient... but off cos i do give in to my ex-bf... but not as much is b4... maybe im scare he will take advantages of me.. thats why... and this makes him frustrated sometimes.. cos i become more to xiao qi type.. we both got talk about it.. and we both did change to be better.. but sometimes we still will go back to the same mistakes...its hard to change ppl character in a short time.. it needs time and really put in effort to do it.. so ya.. in between.. we will have quarrels and all... and recently he is quite stress over his army stuffs and our stuffs.. so ya.. ended up he choose to give up our relationship.. to me is unfair.. but i still gotta accept it... and at first we said to be friends...but he seems like heck care type.. i think he said that becos he felt gulity over the break up.. so ya.. i roughly know he not really wanna b friend with me... so i choose to be stranger with him..actually i still got stay in contacts with most of my ex.. but i think he's different.. donno why... haha... mayb i dont wanna be friend but as lover.. so ya... nvm la.. anyways its all over.. and he's happy with his life now, dont have any burden or commit anything and so i have to too...
although i really need some1 to b there for me, take care of me and love me.. cos im e only child so i need more attention and some1 to care for me ba.. as whenever im at home, im all by myself de.. but for the moment.. i still cant commit in any relationship yet...i donno how to handle the nxt one so it wont have any repeat problems or how shld i change to be better.. and im kind of phobia to this too... haha... cause this one also really a very deep hurt to me...
anyway... hopefully.... everything will b fine.. and more good things will come to me ba..
k la.. i gotta slp le.. late le.. tml gotta wake up early for work too..
and yea.. to my dearest ah nia, must cherish R okay? dont be so ego le ah..=p and im really happy for you that u have found some1 that really cherish u and dote u de. Muacks!
anyway what can i say is i think i'm not good at handling relationship or how to maintain relationship ba..
Like my 2nd last relationship during my Sec5 life...it lasted almost 3 years...
and during that 3years, i think i really suffered alot.. kana betrayed is the most hurt i get..that one really unforgettable.. although ended up im the one who give up.. it still leave me a very deep hurt which took me almost a year to recover..but then now i and him are close friends.. haha.. weird ba..=p
and after that which is e recent relationship.. which lasted 1 year 7mths...
at first im really scare to accept this relationship becos of the bad experience in my previous one.. so i tell myself that this time round.. i must not be too weak... as in be more fierce.. cos previously im more to give in type.. and ended up many bad things happen.. so ya...
and becos of becoming abit more fierce.. it end up my temper wont be that good and also not that patient... but off cos i do give in to my ex-bf... but not as much is b4... maybe im scare he will take advantages of me.. thats why... and this makes him frustrated sometimes.. cos i become more to xiao qi type.. we both got talk about it.. and we both did change to be better.. but sometimes we still will go back to the same mistakes...its hard to change ppl character in a short time.. it needs time and really put in effort to do it.. so ya.. in between.. we will have quarrels and all... and recently he is quite stress over his army stuffs and our stuffs.. so ya.. ended up he choose to give up our relationship.. to me is unfair.. but i still gotta accept it... and at first we said to be friends...but he seems like heck care type.. i think he said that becos he felt gulity over the break up.. so ya.. i roughly know he not really wanna b friend with me... so i choose to be stranger with him..actually i still got stay in contacts with most of my ex.. but i think he's different.. donno why... haha... mayb i dont wanna be friend but as lover.. so ya... nvm la.. anyways its all over.. and he's happy with his life now, dont have any burden or commit anything and so i have to too...
although i really need some1 to b there for me, take care of me and love me.. cos im e only child so i need more attention and some1 to care for me ba.. as whenever im at home, im all by myself de.. but for the moment.. i still cant commit in any relationship yet...i donno how to handle the nxt one so it wont have any repeat problems or how shld i change to be better.. and im kind of phobia to this too... haha... cause this one also really a very deep hurt to me...
anyway... hopefully.... everything will b fine.. and more good things will come to me ba..
k la.. i gotta slp le.. late le.. tml gotta wake up early for work too..
and yea.. to my dearest ah nia, must cherish R okay? dont be so ego le ah..=p and im really happy for you that u have found some1 that really cherish u and dote u de. Muacks!
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