Monday, July 05, 2010
just let me sleep and never wake up
I thought this year for those 'Rabbit' its a very good year for them?
why i totally feel so sucks?
Family...
recently my mum went for a full body check up cause she can feel something not right inside her body... and so...... bad things happened.... during first check up, doctor told my mum there's some thing clot in the uterus which we women shouldnt have it and its bad for her, so doctor advised her to go for a small opt to clear it.. not long after the opt which is today...doctor called up my mum again.. and said that the weird thingy is a very bad virus ( some sort like cancer) and she must go for opt asap as its very dangerous...and doctor also did told her that the opt is quite dangerous too... which im super worried about...really very sad.....its like out of sudden such a big thing happened in our family... although my mum looks ok.. but i can feel the fear within her... but i donno how to console or something.... the only thing i can do now is be by herside before and after her opt.. accompany her in hospital.. hais.. i really hope and pray hard everything will be fine after this.. reallly really hope...
work....
when my ex colleague text me that whether i wanna go back to my ex company (TO) im super duper happy. cos i love the ppl there, the working environment.. its really very flexible and fun...but things changed. last time everyone is like family.. eat lunch togther.. joke around all this... but now... no..... during lunch time, spilt into few groups, dont talk much in office.. only talk to certain ppl.... and the most sad thing is.. i can feel im not welcome there.... cause there's one incident while im in toilet and saw my colleague 'M'.. suddenly... she talk to me about last time thing.. like kind of say me .. say my bad... hais... then say they hired me is to work.... cos that day i was late for work.. only 1 day... thats why.... i donno why she dont like me... maybe is becos of 'A' things so she buei song me ba..haiis.. but what to do.. im already workng here.. and i will continue... just heck care her... as long as i did my part...=[
Love life...
super complicated for now..... i donno how to handle it..... my mind only appear 'I dont want to give up' im trying hard to be best for him..... although sometimes i still do throw temper... but all human does... and character is really difficult to chg... last time im a very very narrow minded girl.... i dont give my bf freedom... but since i together with darling now.. i've already train to be more broad minded... always try to think positive... and understand him.. try to let him do what he likes... and i really made it.. i can see myself the way i treat bf is alot different from last time... i really love and cherish him alot... but i donno about him.. cos he dont show his feeling out... thats the thing why sometimes i still do think negatively cos he don share with me things happen around him or what he thinking .... but i love sharing my stuffs to me.... and he dont like to listen.... thats make me really sad and really donno who to turn to... so now... i got no choice but to start writing blog to make myself feel better.... i dont wish to tell all this to my darling le... cos i dont want both of us to quarrel and quarrel... i wish to be happy with him and live the rest of my life happily with him... my wish really very simple... no matter what or how... i will try to accomodate him... i'll try my best to... all becos i love him alot alot alot... i really hope one day he willl express out that he loves me alot... and one day he will know that im trying my best to fit him....really hope this days will come....
Loving Darling....so much.....
hao ba.. shall stop here le... gotta slp soon... yawn....good night!
why i totally feel so sucks?
Family...
recently my mum went for a full body check up cause she can feel something not right inside her body... and so...... bad things happened.... during first check up, doctor told my mum there's some thing clot in the uterus which we women shouldnt have it and its bad for her, so doctor advised her to go for a small opt to clear it.. not long after the opt which is today...doctor called up my mum again.. and said that the weird thingy is a very bad virus ( some sort like cancer) and she must go for opt asap as its very dangerous...and doctor also did told her that the opt is quite dangerous too... which im super worried about...really very sad.....its like out of sudden such a big thing happened in our family... although my mum looks ok.. but i can feel the fear within her... but i donno how to console or something.... the only thing i can do now is be by herside before and after her opt.. accompany her in hospital.. hais.. i really hope and pray hard everything will be fine after this.. reallly really hope...
work....
when my ex colleague text me that whether i wanna go back to my ex company (TO) im super duper happy. cos i love the ppl there, the working environment.. its really very flexible and fun...but things changed. last time everyone is like family.. eat lunch togther.. joke around all this... but now... no..... during lunch time, spilt into few groups, dont talk much in office.. only talk to certain ppl.... and the most sad thing is.. i can feel im not welcome there.... cause there's one incident while im in toilet and saw my colleague 'M'.. suddenly... she talk to me about last time thing.. like kind of say me .. say my bad... hais... then say they hired me is to work.... cos that day i was late for work.. only 1 day... thats why.... i donno why she dont like me... maybe is becos of 'A' things so she buei song me ba..haiis.. but what to do.. im already workng here.. and i will continue... just heck care her... as long as i did my part...=[
Love life...
super complicated for now..... i donno how to handle it..... my mind only appear 'I dont want to give up' im trying hard to be best for him..... although sometimes i still do throw temper... but all human does... and character is really difficult to chg... last time im a very very narrow minded girl.... i dont give my bf freedom... but since i together with darling now.. i've already train to be more broad minded... always try to think positive... and understand him.. try to let him do what he likes... and i really made it.. i can see myself the way i treat bf is alot different from last time... i really love and cherish him alot... but i donno about him.. cos he dont show his feeling out... thats the thing why sometimes i still do think negatively cos he don share with me things happen around him or what he thinking .... but i love sharing my stuffs to me.... and he dont like to listen.... thats make me really sad and really donno who to turn to... so now... i got no choice but to start writing blog to make myself feel better.... i dont wish to tell all this to my darling le... cos i dont want both of us to quarrel and quarrel... i wish to be happy with him and live the rest of my life happily with him... my wish really very simple... no matter what or how... i will try to accomodate him... i'll try my best to... all becos i love him alot alot alot... i really hope one day he willl express out that he loves me alot... and one day he will know that im trying my best to fit him....really hope this days will come....
Loving Darling....so much.....
hao ba.. shall stop here le... gotta slp soon... yawn....good night!
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